I have an operation coming up next Thursday. It’s pretty routine, nothing exceptional about it but since having kids I get irrational fears about stupid things that never worried me at all before. Like not waking up from a general anaesthetic or the plane crashing or getting in a car accident.
I think it is because I have heard so many tragic stories in recent years that it has started to play on my psychy. I know it’s ridiculous but that doesn’t stop the anxiety from popping up out of nowhere! Of course, it doesn’t stop us from hopping in the car and going places, nor is it going to get me to cancel my op but it can certainly play havoc on my anxiety levels. I love this quote though, it is certainly reflective of my fears which get bigger the more I think about them.
If you want to get literal about it, I actually have a story about a wolf. Yes, you read that right. I’m a Kiwi but I have a story about a wolf.
When I was 19 I worked on a summer camp in New York State, USA.
Here is a birds eye view of the camp just to set the scene. Check out all the trees! There are a lot of wild animals in those trees (and squirrels but that is a story I have written for next week!)
I was walking down a deserted road surrounded by the woods seen in this photo with a few friends (picture one of those horror movie scenes, the sun has just gone down and it is eerily quiet). Soon it was pitch black and we had no torch so we were literally walking by moonlight. The dark shadow of a huge dog leapt into the middle of the road and started growling viciously at us. All we saw was the shadow in the moonlight. We were beyond terrified (there actually WERE wolves and bears in those woods) and didn’t know what the hell to do. I nearly cried I was so scared. I remember thinking I was going to die. Seriously, that is how scared I was. I come from New Zealand where the scariest monster you might come across in the woods is a possum or a giant weta!
What do you do when you come face to face with a wolf?! Do you run? Climb a tree? Play dead? I think I froze. I think I probably nearly wet myself in fear. It was the most terrifying moment of my entire life.
After what seemed like an eternity we heard a male voice yelling. Our ‘wolf’ turned out to be a golden retriever and the owner appeared out of the darkness, apologised and dragged him away. So freakin scary!
In that case the fear literally DID make the wolf bigger than it was.
I’m linking up with With Some Grace for FYBF.
Do you have fears? What was your scariest moment?