MOJO: A quality that attracts people to you and makes you successful and full of energy.
I’ve had some mega mojo missing lately, especially when it comes to writing.
It got to the point that I couldn’t even look at my blog. Just logging into my dashboard filled me with a sense of anxiety because I just had no idea what to write about and actually, I didn’t even want to try! Has anyone been there? Where you have a responsibility (even if it’s not really a responsibility but it just feels like one) and you can’t stand the idea of it?
My blog is a hobby but I feel a responsibility to my readers to write the good stuff but I was sick of the sight of it if I’m honest! I think we all get like that. We get sick of our job, cooking, cleaning, we lose the reading mojo, the exercise mojo, the eating healthy mojo. Sometimes we can’t even stand the sight of our other half (come on, be honest! We’ve all been sick of our partner at some point in time. Especially when they can’t even put their dirty clothes in the laundry hamper and put it BESIDE the bloody thing instead! It’s really not that hard!).
I think the only thing I never get sick of is coffee!
So I’ve basically been avoiding this space. The problem is that eventually you need to make a decision – do I sink or swim? I either bite the bullet and just start writing again or I continue with my ‘break’ and the longer it goes on the less I feel like starting up again.
I love blogging, I do. Blogging got me out of a hole that I was feeling stuck in. A rut. It gave me some much needed motivation to do something that wasn’t work, wasn’t running a household and wasn’t just being a mum.
I’m not sporty by any stretch of the imagination, I’m not that creatively motivated even though I used to love art. I love to read but as far as hobbies went I had nada but I felt like I wanted (needed) something just for me. Hence I turned back to writing but if I’m honest, sometimes I’m just exhausted. It’s no reflection on my readers but sometimes I just can’t be assed with the writing, the editing, the searching for images. Sometimes I just want to flop on the couch and watch TV! Writing uses energy and brain function and sometimes by the time I sit down in the evening it’s 8.30pm and I’m exhausted. I used to write in the mornings but since I have taken on the kindy and care drop offs in the mornings and not getting to work until 10am, I no longer have that time to write. I’m trying to adapt to the new routine and fit it in but obviously I’m struggling a little on that front and need to work something out that will work.
Fellow bloggers know that actually, despite blogging being a hobby for many of us (we certainly don’t do it for the money of which I can honestly say I have never made a cent) it takes up a whoooole lot of time and energy. Often we pour our souls into it and sometimes it feels like it’s not even worth it when you don’t get many click through’s to make it worthwhile. And aside from the writing, editing and image hunting you have the social sharing, the marketing of your blog, the interaction with your audience. Most of the time I love it and then I’ll get to a point of burn out where I feel I have nothing meaningful to write. We’re hard on ourselves to make sure what we put out there is WORTH putting out there and worth the trouble for you to click through and read it. Lately that ‘worth writing’ mojo hasn’t been lurking!
It’s been a tough two weeks though to be fair! Our family dog died and then we had a tummy bug flatten the family. I hate tummy bugs! Of all the bugs, they’re the worst! So it’s been a rough one. And my house wasn’t in order which means neither was my brain. It’s funny how the two can go hand in hand!
So I asked some bloggy friends for some advice and they suggested I write about losing my writing mojo. A slight contradiction of losing the mojo to write about the mojo, but hey! It worked! I think they’re right though, sometimes you just gotta do what you don’t wanna do to be motivated to do the doing.